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What is love like? Chapter 2

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It's been a whole week since that day. The day that I tried to rid myself from the god forsaken world that I live in. The day that I could finally get rid of all of these emotions that were eating me alive. Pain, loneliness, sorrow...I wanted it all gone.

But that is not what I got. Instead, I survived my attempts to kill myself. And now because of that, I have to deal with it all, again. I never wanted this! But it seems like fate just loves to fuck with me.

Right as of this moment I am just lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling thinking about my failure. A few days ago I was able to be released from the hospital. I wasn't really happy about that, not that I would actually want to stay there. But I knew that there were going to be questions for my previous actions.

And a lot...

But no matter how many questions they asked, I didn't answer one. I was to lost in my own mind to pay heed to them. Eventually they gave up and everyone grew silent the rest of the trip home.

'And not to mention I have school tomorrow..' I groaned at the thought. Great, just fucking great this is just what I needed! I completely forgot that i had school tomorrow. I have to see those shit faces again! The ones who made me and pushed me to my limit! The one who bullied me constantly to the point to where I what to commit suicide...and to try it...

I glanced over to my clock. '12:00' midnight. Turning my attention back up to the ceiling my eyes started to get heavy. I was dead tired, not to mention since I didn't get any sleep yesterday. I was too depressed to sleep, even though that is always my method to escaping this world other than suicide. I just wasn't up to it. Nor was I up to eating anything either.

I haven't eaten for the last few days. I'd just tell them I already did and go up to my room.

Feeling my eyes get heavier and heavier with each passing second, I finally let they drop and carry me into a deep slumber.

I am really not looking forward to this...

The loud beeping sound of my alarm clock was the first thing I heard that morning. Groaning, I reach over and slam my fist on the alarm.

'God I hate that thing...'

Instead of getting up, I bury my face in my pillow and sigh. 'Perhaps if I fake being sick they'll let me stay home..But that probably won't work since-'

A sudden knocking at my door cut me off. Knowing full well who it was I just remain silent. I really don't want to have to deal with him this morning, or anyone for that matter. Sadly the knocking continued and gradually got louder before it finally stopped.

"Lovino, it's time to get up and ready for school so hurry up or you'll be later again." Nonno said on the other end or the door. After a while the sound of footsteps disappeared leaving me to lie there.

Knowing fully well of what would happen if I don't get up soon, I forget about the excuse and slowly start to get ready.

Grabbing all of my books and my bag I walk down the stairs into the kitchen where i'm greeted by a rushed Feli, who runs right passed me.

"What are you in such a rush for?" I ask. He quickly replies to me while he puts his shoes on.

"I'm going to be late meeting up with Luddy and Kiku! If i'm not there in time, Luddy is going to be anger at me. I'll see you later fratello! Bye!" And with that he runs out the door, leaving me alone to stand there.

"Yeah...Bye..." I say. Sighing I walk into the kitchen. Of course, and there goes Feli. Running away to go and join his friends while i'm just here with nothing. I'm jealous of him on how he has everything and me on how I don't. Looking down at my feet, I walk into the kitchen where nonno was.

"There you are, hurry and get something to eat I have a meeting early this morning and i can't be late." He asks.

Oh shit I forgot, Feli is usually with us when we drive to school and now that he is with him friends I have to shit in that god forsake car alone with him. I just hope nothing about my attempted suicide or anything school related comes up.

"Um..No it's ok i'm not hungry, lets just get going." I say, causing him to look at me.

"You sure?"

I simply nod, hoping to just get this over with.

Getting into the passenger seat, nonno starts up the care and begins to back out of the driveway. Most of the drive was in uncomfortable silence. I really want to say something, but if I do it might turn into something completely different so I decided to stay quiet.

"So..how has school been for you?" Nonno asked me. God damn it! I was really hoping that we would be silent the rest of the ways there. But not only that, it was a school question.

"Oh... Yeah it's going fantastic..." I mumble out. He glance over to me and turns his attention back to the road.

"Are you sure?" He asks, obviously knowing something is up.

"Yes." I lie, a hint of annoyance in my voice.

"Because I recently had a talk with your teachers and-"

"You what!?" I say cutting him off.

"I had a talk with your teachers, and they say you are doing very poorly in class. Either from back sassing them to napping during an important lesson. Not to mention you are fail all of your tests and questions. Why is that? Why is it that you are doing this to yourself!? Don't you care about your grades? Your future, what about that? Don't you care at all!?" He questions, his voice growing louder each second.

I didn't reply, because to be honest i really didn't have an answer for him. I just continued to look out the car window which only made him grow angrier.

"Lovino answer me! Why are you doing this to yourself!?" Nothing...

Knowing I won't answer he just sighs and focuses on the road again.

"Why can't you be more like your brother..?" He mumbles, causing my eyes to widen. D-did he really just say that..? No...Why...Why must everyone tell me this..?

"He's smart, gets him work done and on time, he's polite and not rude, he doesn't you profanity like you do an-"

"Let me out.."

"What?"

"I said..to let me out of the car.."

"I'm sorry but I-"

"I SAID NOW!"

And with that nonno parks near the curve and I quickly grab my stuff and get out of the car, slamming the door behind me. I ignored that sound of my nonno calling to me and I continued to walk, my head hanging low and tear threatening to fall.

Why must everyone say that to me? I know that i'm nothing like him and that I never will. And I know that no one will ever like me or want me as a friend. So why must everyone keep telling me this? Why...?

While I was deep into thought, I accidentally run into something causing me to land square on my ass as well as the stranger. Says curse words under my breath, I rub my sore behind.

"Oh, Dios mío! I'm so sorry about that! Here let me help you up." Glancing up, I noticed a hand outstretched towards me. The man, who's hand it belong to had short curly brown hair, green eyes, and lightly tanned skin. To be honest he was kind of handsome..Wait...what the fuck did I just say!?

Frowning, I pick myself off the ground and turn to the stranger.

"Watch where you are going next time, stronzo!" I said trying to sound as pissed as I could, but what I didn't expect was for him to smile at me.

"Haha, I guess I should though huh? My bad, but you are ok though right?" Did he just ask me..if i'm alright.

"Of course i'm not. You just ran into me and knocked me on my ass! It hurt a lot!"

"Y-yeah, again i'm really sorry about that~" He says nervously. I just roll my eyes and continue walking, school starts in 5 minutes but it's not like I care if i'm late to be honest. Hearing footsteps beside me I look up and see that annoying guy from a few seconds ago walking next to me, with a large smile plastered on his face.

"W-what the hell do you think you are doing!?" I ask, he looks over at me still smiling.

"I'm walking with you~"

"Why!?"

"Well why not~"

"Because I don't want you to that's why!"

He continues to look at me with that stupid grin. It was really starting to make me uncomfortable!

"So what is your name?" He says. I look at him as if he had two head. Did he seriously just ask me that.

"It's none of your damn business!"

"Aw come on, please~"

"...It's Lovino..Lovino Vargas.." I mumble.

"Aw what a cute name~ My name is Antonio. Antonio Fernandez Carriedo. It's nice to meet you Lovi~!" He says. What the hell did he just call me!?

"Don't call me that you bastardo! And why they hell are you following me anyway?" He looked at me and gave me a wide grin. How the hell is he not angry about me calling him name? Usually everyone is..

"Hmm, I'm not sure really~" I stare at him in shock. This ass hole is just following me for no reason what so ever, what the hell! This guy is really starting to piss me off!

Before I could say anything else the bell rings signaling that I was late. I let out a groan and start to walk faster, while Antonio right behind me.

"Ah so you go here too? That's great news!"

"Oh yeah, how..?"

He smiles "Because I just moved here~!"
Prologue: gumi1111.deviantart.com/art/Wh…
Chapter 1: gumi1111.deviantart.com/art/Wh…
Chapter 2: You are here!
Chapter 3:www.deviantart.com/art/What-is…
Chapter 4: What is Love Like? Chapter 4
Chapter 5: gumi1111.deviantart.com/art/Wh…
Chapter 6: gumi1111.deviantart.com/art/Wh…
Chapter 7: Coming soon...

(☞≧ヮ≦)☞ If you want to follow the story on www.fanfiction.net/s/9496290/1…
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kittykatrocks12's avatar
Stupid grandfather, very stupid. How could he say something so cruel

YAY He finally meets Toni